I’m awake in places I haven’t been awake in a long time. I’m alive in places where I’ve been dead for a long time.
That Sword you hold in your hand is a weapon. It can harm. It can hurt. Sometimes the wounds you inflict won’t be physical. But your sharp words can scratch a soul. Your careless words can make a humble heart burn. Not your heart, of course. For it is so closely guarded.
Paris is the city of overrated museums. There are so many that a visitor doesn’t know how to even begin doing them justice. So I’m both surprised and relieved that most people don’t know about The French Playing Cards Museum. After Day 1 in Paris where I overdosed on the usual tourist haunts with the way too many instagramers, I was desperate to get away from the crowds and do something a little more quiet and low key.
The Sun is the 19th card in the major arcana. It’s a card that represents finally seeing the light again after a long dark tunnel. It’s about re-finding that part of yourself that’s untouched and unmarked by pain, loss and suffering. The Sun is the Soul. Unlike the transient nature of our human experience, the soul is eternal, unwavering, constant.
This is no candle flame burning softly and tenderly. This is a forest fire bent on annihilating everything and everyone that dares to resist it. I thought I would mourn the passing of things and people that I held so dearly in my heart for such a long time. But instead, I don’t. I accept that things must pass. That nothing lasts forever.
We were born into the physical world of matter for a reason. I don’t believe the spiritual plane is superior to the physical plane or vice versa. Instead, I believe they are deeply intertwined and interconnected. One cannot exist without the other.
The heart wants what it wants. In cliche interpretations of Genesis, Adam and Eve is a story that narrates mankind’s fall from grace. But I think it’s a story that describes choice. We can do as we are told – or we can follow our desires. But either decision is a conscious choice. Since the days of Genesis – mankind has struggled to bridge the gap between duty and desire. On the surface, duty seems logical – even permissible. But underneath it all – the desire to follow our passion persists.