When I drew this particular card in a tarot reading today – I couldn’t help…
I fill my days with all kinds of things that bring money and certainty. Everyone tells me that ‘I’ve done well for myself’ – but deep down, my accomplishments feel like nothing because I’m not being myself. I’m an inauthentic version of me doing what everyone else thinks I should be doing. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. I had bigger dreams. Bigger goals. Bigger plans. Bigger everything. When did I throw it all away? Why did I throw it all away?
The world is a crowded place full of attractions and…distractions. There is nowhere to run. Nowhere to hide. No quick fix left to give you that temporary high. Another drink won’t make it all better. Another cigarette isn’t going to make things alright. The next country, the next relationship, the next God-knows-what isn’t going to make things different. You’ve done all those things already – and your problems have stayed the same. You can’t lie to yourself anymore.
You wake up one morning and feel like everything you’ve worked so hard to achieve means absolutely nothing. You’ve done what everyone else has expected of you. Your bosses are happy. You’ve made enough money. Hell, even your parents are proud of you. But that sense of fulfilment that you thought would come from it is nowhere to be found. Instead, there’s a voice inside you that whispers, “Life was meant to be more than this.”
Little Tree’s parents don’t have time for him. They think they can put money in the soil and expect Little Tree to grow. Such strange logic some people have… Kids don’t need money the way adults do. They need us to nurture, guide and provide the right nutrients so they can become the big beautiful trees they are meant to be.