You have forgotten how to just live. You are caught up in the routine of your day to day affairs. You do the same crap day in and day out. You live a world of certainty – not in a world of adventure, wonder and possibility. You need to let go of whatever grandiose cookie cutter plans you have for for the future. While we’re at it, why don’t you relegate the dusty worries of your past to the history books where they belong?
The alarm rings at 5am. It’s time for the Monday blues. Welcome to yet another week of groundhog days. Beady-eyed, David accidentally hits the stop button instead of the snooze button. At 6.30am, his eyes reluctantly open. Oh crap. I’m going to be late.
Once upon a time, there was a young lady. She worked at the office of a major brokerage firm. She spent her days talking about bonds, stocks and writing up future financial forecasts. The people she worked with weren’t particularly pleasant. Backstabbing and underhanded nastiness were the norm amongst the staff.
I’ve always believed that sensitive people suffer more than logical people. We feel our emotions more deeply and intensely. In some respects, my life’s been far more painful than many of my peers. But now that I’m older, I think that logical people tend to stay in bad situations way longer than sensitive people. Since logical people can distance themselves from their emotions, they never get down and out the way we do. And since they never truly get ‘down’ they never quite get ‘out’ of bad situations.
The first time I saw the Seven of Wands in a tarot reading, it confused the crap out of me. Here’s this guy – in a defensive position, ready for a fight. Problem is: he’s on top of a hill and there’s no one actually attacking him. But still, he looks really frustrated.
As there isn’t an actual enemy in sight – I wondered if the six wands in the forefront of the card are actually real or simply a manifestation of his fears. Why is he so ready for an attack?
The Queen of Swords sits in her throne in the sky. Her face is devoid of emotion. Her left arm reaches out to welcome dialogue. She’s got a sword in her right hand to cut through the emotional clouds and see things from an impartial perspective so she can solve the problems at hand. A bird flies freely above her head – symbolising the value of objectivity and seeing things from a larger perspective.
I abandoned my creative life in pursuit of more practical matters. I held down a structured job, found it somewhere in me to be a role model for young people as well as found some semblance of success. But from somewhere inside me – something has been screaming and yelling at me. I thought age had slowly wiped out my imagination. But no – I had just buried it to deal with practical day-to-day matters. And now, after such a long hiatus, I return to the creative life.