I’ve always believed that sensitive people suffer more than logical people. We feel our emotions more deeply and intensely. In some respects, my life’s been far more painful than many of my peers. But now that I’m older, I think that logical people tend to stay in bad situations way longer than sensitive people. Since logical people can distance themselves from their emotions, they never get down and out the way we do. And since they never truly get ‘down’ they never quite get ‘out’ of bad situations.
The first time I saw the Seven of Wands in a tarot reading, it confused the crap out of me. Here’s this guy – in a defensive position, ready for a fight. Problem is: he’s on top of a hill and there’s no one actually attacking him. But still, he looks really frustrated.
As there isn’t an actual enemy in sight – I wondered if the six wands in the forefront of the card are actually real or simply a manifestation of his fears. Why is he so ready for an attack?
The Queen of Swords sits in her throne in the sky. Her face is devoid of emotion. Her left arm reaches out to welcome dialogue. She’s got a sword in her right hand to cut through the emotional clouds and see things from an impartial perspective so she can solve the problems at hand. A bird flies freely above her head – symbolising the value of objectivity and seeing things from a larger perspective.
I abandoned my creative life in pursuit of more practical matters. I held down a structured job, found it somewhere in me to be a role model for young people as well as found some semblance of success. But from somewhere inside me – something has been screaming and yelling at me. I thought age had slowly wiped out my imagination. But no – I had just buried it to deal with practical day-to-day matters. And now, after such a long hiatus, I return to the creative life.
If you’re an idiot who says what you think and feel – then just think about the potential conflict you can cause. You just come across as intolerant. If other people are observing that – we make judgments about the person who is saying those thoughtless things, too. If you’re thoughtful about what you say – it’s more meaningful and you’re saying things with a purpose instead of just saying what you feel at the time.
We Asians are often stereotyped as shy and afraid to speak our minds. When asked for our opinion in a group setting, many us say nothing. This leads some westerners to believe we don’t have opinions. When we do voice our opinions, we sometimes only say positive things – leading others to think we’re being dishonest.
Today, after a three year hiatus, this teacher finally returned to the classroom as a student. After so many years of sitting through so many classes – it is only now that I understand how to take responsibility for my own learning. And now I’m finally going to buckle down and focus on something I’ve wanted to do for a while.