Scorpio energy…I know it all too well. Why do I have to feel these things so intensely? Whilst others are off having their flings and flirtations without a care in the world, I feel debilitated by the depth and intensity of my desire. Especially when it sneaks up on me like a thief in the night – without prior warning. The worst part of it is that I never seem to have any choice in the matter. It’s raw. Untamed. Private. It’s a diamond desire that doesn’t want to seen and yet silently and patiently yearns for the day that it will be discovered.
It is the best of zodiac signs, it is the worst of zodiac signs. Welcome to Scorpio season: a time when nature gets ready to take a much deserved break. I’ve noticed a trend with Scorpio people. They always seem sweet and pleasant on the surface – but when you get to know them….
I can still remember looking at a picture of the solar system in a children’s encyclopedia and feeling like I somehow knew those great nine wanderers intimately. At the weekly visit to the Hindu Temple, I remember gazing curiously at the personifications of the nev graha – nine planets – as they are they known in Vedic astrology. I often circled around them as though I were a mini-planet earth. To me, the myths and allegories that the planets have inspired over the millennia are as fascinating as the scientific discoveries of the past two centuries. May the night sky never cease to inspire us.
It’s been a tough week. One where I’ve had to make very difficult decisions. Face some hard truths. Do things I’d rather not. Make necessary but painful decisions about who stays in my life and who goes. Embodying the energy of the Suit of Swords is not something that comes easily to me. When the choice is between preserving yourself and destroying another, what do you choose?
In the past 3 years, I feel like I’ve lost touch with that ‘watery’ side of myself. Even when I have written about the Suit of Cups, my musings have been limited to Mr. Mopey from the 5 of Cups and Mr. and Mrs. Nostalgia from the Six of Cups. Regardless of what zodiac sign you are – those are not easy life situations to deal with. And for a water sign, that energy can be particularly strong, toxic and lasting. Our feelings and emotions run far deeper than those of fire, air or earth signs.
If there’s one card that’s as bad as the mopey Five of Cups guy who can’t move past his grief – it’s the Six of Cups people who are romanticising the past. Someone get them a room. They’re making me want to vomit. I’m still not sure what worse – romanticising what was and what could have been – or just swimming around in your own sorrow.
Most people don’t enjoy being disciplined. I’m a teacher. I know. A majority of people – regardless of age – would rather be up in the clouds with the Care Bears than sit down with Planet Saturn for a royal metaphorical spanking. But yet – that is exactly what is destined for all of us when we arrive at our Saturn Return.